裁縫師-物與我之於女性存在意識水墨創作

Abstract

本論文論述當下女性在「不可承受的體重」以及「被注視的性別」的壓力下，探討氾濫的女體符號在資訊媒體中，影響著大部分女性對於擁有外在的華麗才能找到自恃力量。要求完美的自戀背後，女性在精神上所付出相對的精神代價，猶如女性找不到屬於自我存在的意識，因而以此觀念融入於自己的創作中，畫面在吵雜而二維的破碎中製造，空虛、布白的穿插、破碎的創作語言，是以拉岡所說的自我感覺無法統一來詮釋，批判女性受到當下物化的影響，讓女性對自我的意識不斷掙扎與焦慮著，因此研究創作從象徵著女性在造型上的戀物情節開始。女性的自我存在與影視媒體的複製有著不可抹滅的因果關係，藉由創作和閱讀，讓自己的創作有更豐富的詮釋與跳脫。

This research describes women nowadays live under the pressure of " Cannot be withstood body weight" and "The sex with gaze it", and discuss the overused female body symbols in the mass media which influence most women to have magnificent outlook to get the power of being self-assured. In order to ask perfect Narcissism, women pay mental price, which is like that women cannot find their sense of existence. With this idea, my painting is created in a two-dimensional plan, and the chaos of the environment. The drawing is also about emptiness, unpainted spatial management, and the fragment. It is what Lacanican said that the self-consciousness cannot be unified. Being influenced by immediate transformation, women are anxious about self-consciousness. Therefore, my research is based on women’s fetishism in styling. There is a close relationship between women’s sense of existence and imitation of the mass media. Hence, painting and reading enrich my research.