升學型高中女學生非典型情慾實踐之回溯研究

Abstract

青少女過往被刻畫對性無知與被動的樣貌，在近年的研究中開始強調青少女可經由經驗轉化，用女性自身的角度來表達情慾，透過情慾實踐是可以覺察情慾、與身體與自身的意義，在實踐與慾望行動上展現出了主動性。本研究因此提問以下三項問題：

一、升學型高中女學生的非典型情慾實踐，在什麼樣的資源下形成？ 二、升學型高中女學生之非典型情慾實踐的樣態與內涵為何？如何與既有的傳統情慾結構互動？其實踐歷程遭遇什麼樣的挑戰？ 三、升學型高中女學生在非典型情慾實踐過程中，如何影響自己的身體管理？以及如何重新建構自身情慾主體？

以升學型的普通高級中學的女學生為研究對象，透過訪談七位女學生。本研究結果如下：

一、廣泛的閱讀與網路資源的運用，青少女得以建構多元的情慾樣貌；尤其是網際網路快速、匿名的特性，青少女能容易的獲得資訊，以及在網路世界的互動中獲得認同。 二、青少女受到情慾結構嚴密的管制，非典型情慾實踐依附在結構的縫隙，大多利用放學後的時間，在公共場所的隱密處進行，使青少女的情慾實踐常態性的處於不安全之處境。但既有的情慾結構出現鬆動，對於青少女在交往關係、服儀管理、情慾態度上較為彈性，提供探索與實踐的可能。 三、學生間的日常互動與身體經驗交流，是建構身體觀與情慾觀的重要途徑；當校園對於學生行為管理的力道逐漸減弱，由同儕自己形塑的規範力量則逐漸增強，成為新的情慾監控系統。 四、社會對於學生學業成就的表現，與品行有所關連。升學型高中的女學生承載乖順與純潔的符碼，在情慾實踐的歷程中容易產生自我衝突；同時，成績好的學生也享有社會的寬待，身分上與情慾絕緣的標籤反而成為情慾實踐的庇護。「好學生」身分，對於青少女在非典型情慾實踐既是壓迫也是資源。 五、 經歷非典型情慾實踐的青少女，對於身體的管理更能趨近自己的需求，悅納自己，對於情慾也建立了正向的觀點。相關經驗賦予青少女，擁有改寫情慾腳本的能力，其改寫承繼了既有情慾結構版本，青少女透過自身實踐不斷修正，其情慾主體在非典型情慾實踐中得以重新建構。

Adolescent girls used to be portrayed by the society at large as sexually innocent and passive. More recent researches, however, have emphasized that adolescent girls are able to transform their experiences learned from exploring sexuality into expressing sexuality from a female perspective. Through sexuality practices, they discover the meaning of sexuality and body to themselves, while exhibiting activeness in sexual activities. This research thus proposes the following three questions:

1. Under what kind of resources are atypical sexuality practices by female students in elitist high schools formed? 2. What are the forms and contents of atypical sexuality practices by female students in elitist high schools? How do these practices interact with the existing, traditional sexuality structure? 3. How do atypical sexuality practices in the process affect the ways in which female students in elitist high schools manage their own bodies? How do these practices help them reconstruct their sexual subjectivity?

This research uses female students in college-preparatory high schools as primary objects of study. The research results are as follow:

1. Through extensive reading and utilizing Internet resources, female students in elitist high schools are able to construct more diverse forms of sexuality. Especially, the immediate and anonymous qualities of the Internet allow adolescent girls to obtain information easily and acquire identity through virtual interactions. 2. Adolescent girls used to be the object of rigorous control by the existing sexuality structure, while the practices of atypical sexuality could only hide in the crevices in the structure. They often took place after school in obscure places in public spaces, making adolescent girls’ sexuality practices constantly under unsafe conditions. However, the existing sexuality structure has been loosening, relaxing its control over adolescent girls on matters of relationships, dress codes, and sexual attitudes, thus providing them with more opportunities to explore and practice sexuality. 3. Everyday interactions and exchange of bodily experiences between students are important ways in which views on body and sexuality are formed. The intensity of control on student behaviors by high school authorities has been weakening, while the normative power formed among the student peers has been strengthening, thus becoming a new system for surveilling sexuality. 4. There is an established notion in the society that the academic achievement of students correlates to their behaviors. Female students in elitist high schools inherit a code of docility and purity, making them prone to self-contradiction during process of atypical sexuality practices; at the same time, students with high academic achievements are privileged with the leniency of society. For the insulation of their identity from sexuality can act as a protection for sexuality practices. As a result, the position of being “a good student,” to adolescent girls in atypical sexuality practices, is not only a source of suppression but also a resource. 5. Adolescent girls that have gone through atypical sexuality practices manage their own bodies in ways closer to their own needs, exhibit more self-acceptance, and are able to establish positive attitudes towards sexuality. These experiences provide adolescent girls the ability to rewrite the script of sexuality, which inherits the older version of existing sexuality structure. Adolescent girls, through personally engaging in sexuality practice, continually revise and rewrite the script, in which process they reconstruct their sexual subjectivity.