喧囂後的寂靜 -- 陳怡伶繪畫創作論述

Abstract

此研究是根據筆者本人，在將近三十年職場喧囂後，尋找內心深處寂靜能量的過程。在人生不同階段的挑戰，面對生命不時的叩問，以及生命意義的反思，希望在繪畫研究以及創作過程當中，能真誠表達內心對繪畫的共鳴及感受，並藉由繪畫，超越文字，將生命淬煉後的體會，以唯美、唯心的理念，確實表現在創作中。不可諱言，每個人一生都在追求所謂的幸福人生，然而越是富庶的生活，越容易感到失落及迷茫。筆者從事市場策略行銷多年，以觀察並運用人類消費行為的各種心理特性，在市場上創下業績的同時，也相對的，對人心產生鄙視，因此常處於矛盾的狀態，進而苦思人性的本質。顯而易見，物質上的滿足，都無法為人們帶來真正的幸福；人性的貪婪，想要(wants)早已超越需要(needs)。如同哲學家叔本華認為，人生之所以痛苦，都是源自於不斷地需求；他也提到，人生真正的幸福，是來自內心的寧靜；更主張唯有透過審美的心靈活動，才能使人暫時脫離痛苦。因此，筆者在研究及創作的過程中， 希望探索生命的意義，發覺物質上的極簡之美、內心的寂靜之能量！本研究報告以人類歷史、美術史、以及思想史為出發點，加上過去數十年來筆者實地探訪歐、美、亞洲各地主要的博物館、美術館的繪畫館藏，整理出內心深受感動的繪畫作品，並輔以時代背景以及畫家生平的研究，探討並且學習如何在創作的過程中，發覺內心平靜的力量，如何在完成創作後，作品能充分的傳達寂靜的氛圍。此研究報告共分為五個章節，分別說明研究的動機與目的，研究方法與架構；另外，從心理學、哲學以及美學的觀點，來探討筆者創作的脈絡；接著以筆者的研究心得，作為核心價值，發展創作內容，並將作品加以解析。最後，回顧筆者繪畫的過程，總結令人內心感到寂靜的方法，確定自己未來繼續努力的方向。This research is the process of finding the quiet power which is deep in my heart after nearly thirty years of hustle and bustle at workplace. The challenges happened in different stages of life, I’ve always been inquiring constantly by myself and reflecting on the meaning of life. With the developing of research and creation, I wish I could sincerely express my inner resonance and feelings on painting where beyond words. It also reflects in the creation with the concept of aesthetics and authenticity after the experience of refinery life.It cannot be denied that everyone is pursuing the so-called happy life all their lives. However, the richer the life, the easier it is to feel lost and confused. I have been engaging in strategic marketing for decades, to observe and take advantages of psychological characteristics while people doing consumption, to achieve outstanding performance. However, at the same time, I also despise people's reflection, that often makes me in a state of contradiction, and then, I further think about nature of human being. Obviously, material satisfaction cannot bring authentic happiness, the greedy of consumption, want has been far ahead of need. Just as the philosopher Schopenhauer believed that the pain of life comes from constant needs; he also mentioned that the true happiness of life comes from inner peace; he also advocated that only through aesthetic spiritual activities can temporarily out of pain. Therefore, in the process of research and creation, I hope to explore the meanings of life, discover the beauty of minimalism in material, and the energy of inner quiet!This research takes world history, art history, philosophy, and psychology as the starting point. In addition, having visited the painting collections of major museums and art galleries in Europe, the United States, and Asia for the past few years, I had sorted out the deeply touched artworks. Supplemented with the background of the eras and studied the painters’ bibliographies to explore and learn how to discover the power of inner peace in the process of creation, and how to fulfill and convey the atmosphere of quiet even after the painting is completed. This research contents five chapters, respectively explaining the motivation and purpose of the research, research methods and structure; and from the perspective of psychology, philosophy and aesthetics, to discuss the context of my creations; then take the research experience as the core concept to develop the content of art works and analyze the spiritual of creations. Finally, review the painting process, summarize the painting that makes people feel quiet, and determine the direction of my future efforts.