日暮途窮中的絕處逢生－一段羽球選手自我反思之旅

Abstract

本研究採取敘說探究法，以個人二十二年的羽球選手經歷及其經驗故事為內容主軸，用以探究運動顛峰黃金時期，所經歷的實境故事。 因父親是國小的羽球教練，筆者自三歲開始接觸羽球，十七歲那年成為國內最年輕的排名賽球后，接下來的比賽，一路過關斬將、屢創佳績，成為台灣羽壇新希望。 十八歲那年，筆者在雅典奧運，追平台灣羽壇女單史上佳績；四年後，卻在北京奧運賽事中重傷，也輸掉自信和走下去的動力。 爬得越高，跌得越深，曾經有過放棄的念頭，經歷無數次衝突、無助、徬徨，之後重新建構自我的生命歷程，一步一步的找回自我。 這是筆者的故事，也可能是許多運動員共同心聲，筆者希望用自己走過的路，來告訴其他運動員，成功有脈絡可尋，失敗後一蹶不振於事無補，找回最初單純又快樂的動機，才是運動選手背後最重要的動力。In this thesis, the Narrative Inquiry is taken as a research method to study an experienced reality during a golden age, based on my personal story as a badminton contestant for twenty two years. My father was a coach of an elementary school badminton team. Thus I has a connection with badminton since I was three years old. I won the first place of female badminton contest in Taiwan when I was seventeen. I was the youngest female winner ever. In the following contests, I won more and became a new lead of female badminton game in Taiwan. When I was eighteen, I reached the top of my career since I equalized -the performance of best Taiwan women's singles in the Athens 2004 Olympic Games. Four years later, I was injured in the Beijing 2008 Olympic. And I lost confidence and motive to continue my badminton career. The more you expect, the more you despair. I fell from the top and a thought of give up came to my mind. But I conquered it, reconstructed my self in mental and recovered my selfhood step by step. This is my story, and could be a common heartfelt wishes of some contestants. By my experience, I would like to tell the other contestants that there is a trace can be followed to success. To collapse after one setback is helpless. At the opposite side, retrieving the motive of pure and happiness at the first place is the most important motivation behind a contestant.